Really? This weekend has been quite a thought-provoking and uncomfortable one. Simply because, the end of the year is here and it’s the season to think about what happens in the next few years. That is very tough for me because I’ve not been one to move my own chess pieces or rock the boat.
The questions do seem very complicated.
Do I/we want to further our studies?
If we get a scholarship or didn’t have to pay the entire tuition fee on our own – why not? I’m not entirely closed to the idea but I’ve also not given much serious thought to it.
Then the question is what do I/we want to study?
Something related to our individual areas of expertise – Chemistry and History? Or something related to Education? The latter makes sense to me if I am going to be in education for a while, which is what I want anyway.
Should we look for local or overseas Uni options?
HJ has no qualms studying and living overseas – kid or not kid but I am paralyzed with fear when I think about it. I have no idea where to begin thinking.
What about childcare options? My mom?
Can both of us study at the same time?
What is going to happen financially?
And after all the above is said, am I even cut out for it?
Clearly I don’t have the answers to all my questions above yet.
I probably need to think really carefully about what happens after my current stint.
Previously in 2013, I did consider doing a Masters in Asian Studies at a local Uni but before I could submit my application, I was given a posting to where I am now. What was originally a 2 year stint has become a 4 year one (ending in 2018).
At that time, it was quite clear that God had other plans for me even though I thought I had a plan – the Asian Studies Masters.
However, I am really not so sure what to think now.
Somedays, I can’t help but think that a lot of decisions would have been easier without Nat in the picture. Want to go overseas to study? Sure.
However, there’s no point having such thoughts because Nat is a reality. Having my mum retire early to take care of him is another reality. The fact that both our parents are getting on in years is also a reality.
The only straightforward thing I’m getting out of all these is that there is never really a good time to do anything.